In the society we live in, we are taught to suppress our emotions, conditioning us to divorce our outer worlds from our inner worlds. The Japanese have perfected this form of control more than any other culture I have witnessed, carefully guarding their inner lives with fierce protection.
Drawing is not about seeing something the way you want it to be, but instead about letting go of your pre-conceived ideas and accepting something for what it really is. Detach the ego from the drawing. It is not about the way you see something, but about connecting on a deeper level with the world and starting to see how it truly is.